Awake uninspired but life moves on to the better good...

*fingers cross*


My heart pounding hard as i type in my student ID to sign in to my college website.


Password: **********


*click* Login


Welcome Ms. Vivienne ---- --- ---


*click* Exam Results


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*tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *tap* *click*


BAM!


My eyes suddenly experienced a great gravity pull... And the feeling that i had 4 months ago came back. But compared to 4 months ago, the first thing i did (besides thanking God), i thought of him... My late grandfather. The words starts ringing in my ear all over again. And it feels like it was just yesterday i hear him say those words to me. And just that, tears rolled down my cheeks...

How i miss him so much... He was someone deeply treasured in my heart even though life was not as happy when he was alive. I hope he knows that we all love him very much...

We Love You Ghong Ghong!

Okok... I'm talking about my exam results. I pass all... I'm very happy about it. Although i see lots of "-"(minus sign), it's still something that satisfied me. Thank you!

Looks like my mom have to cook me a meal. We made a deal during my torturous study week cuz at that time, i felt really tired and ready to give up. So, to put my spirits back up, i made a deal with her - If i pass my final exam, she has to cook me and my family dinner and i mean a real dinner with dishes and stuff. My mom seldom and i mean... SELDOM cook, so, for her to agree to do it, is something that i think, worth studying for... *smiles*

I love you mom and... dad... and sis... and my family and grandpa who has a great view up there watching over us... :)

Ciouz peeps! \m/

It's Back to Reality

Its here! Its finally here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *heart pounding so hard*
I'm talking about my results. How is it you ask? I don't know. I have not take it. I was hoping that i will find out online from the college site but unfortunately it's not there. It just state a message saying, "Sorry, your result is being held at this moment. Please check with the examination canter for further details." in big bold red font.
I was so nervous when i heard my friend got his result. I can't imagine whether i got good or bad results. I don't dare to think about it. I'm afraid to be disappointed. But it's hard not to think about it when it's already there! I probably sound crazy rite now but the feeling is unbearable!!!
I keep thinking, will i get As? Or Bs? Or even worse, Cs???

Thinking of it now is making me freak!

I think i should have taken meditation class when i had the chance. I'm in a desperate need of it now. I'm not sure when i'll find out my results but i know it's very soon...

Oh God, I need all the luck i need now...

My Last Day

This whole week was the and i mean THE most tiring week of my life! I had less than 5 hours of sleep everyday for almost 2 weeks and i can honestly say that my body feels like tearing apart or at least that was how my brain feels.
Last week of college was tiring because we (my course mates) were rushing our last minute assignments and projects. And we had to study for the FINAL! My God... That 5 letter word still gives me shivers every time i think about it. But now i can safely say i am free as a bird... Except the fact that i have no where to go (at least my brain feels free - I am giving my brain an official 2 weeks off.. XD)

Exam week was not only tiring but it was quite unsatisfying. Ok. Here's a trivia, "How can a normal human being do 5 essays and i mean 2 pages long essay in 2 hours?"
a) Get robotic hands implant b) Pray to God for magic hands c) Get a fast writing pen d) Faint in class cuz u gave up

Give up? Well, it's easy. Do lots of praying, wish u can get robotic hands and fast writing pen, and faint right after when all that fails. L.O.L!
I was joking... But of course you need to pray. How did i do it? That's the answer why i didn't get enough sleep. Study of course! Lots of it! No kidding...
During the exam, you have no time to stop and think about it. You literally have to throw up everything you've studied whether it is right or wrong! So, that was my secret weapon... Not much isn't it? *sigh*

I tried... I really did... You can see the pictures below to see the whole process... HAHAHAH!

During my last day of exam which was Advertising exam (it didn't go well... i didn't answer a 10 marks question, so, i lost 10 marks because of TIME), i got stuck in traffic although i know i won't be late cuz it was 7 something in the morning and my test is at 2pm. After the exam, my college buddies and I went to Pyramid to SHOP SHOP SHOP (tho i didn't buy anything)!!!
We shopped till nite at 9 something when my dad came to pick me up.

Today my dear ones, i am freeeee..... I've been Facebooking the whole day till i got bored so i'm writing my blog. Well, you'll be seeing a lot about me this few weeks cuz i've got nothing better to do... So, brace yourself... XD

My Post-it, one of my important study tools

I was cleaning my file the other day and i realize
college really make us use a lot of paper.
Shouldn't we be doing something about it?

Sweets that help me stay awake for the day...
(my dentist is so gonna kill me, or at least my sugar level)

"Everyday is like a dragging car ride" quote Anonymous

It honestly isn't moving!

Panic finally over... wait..... new panic coming soon...

What do you know? I finally got my SPM results yesterday. My dad actually took leave to send me to school(which i miss so much!). The news said that we could collect our results at 10am but turns out the results were stuck in traffic(literally!). So imagine hundreds of anxious students waiting for their "future". One of them is "me"! I arrived at 10 something and waited for about 2 hours. Finally when we were told that it was TIME, my heart felt as if it was gonna jump off my chest!!! To make matters worse, my best friend was stopped by a teacher because apparently she wore to "sexy"...(???) and i was the first to arrived at the classroom!!!(different class, different classrooms)
Stupid thing is, i didn't have the guts to go in. So i let my other "ex-classmates" to go in first. After a breath or 2, i finally step into the classroom. My "use-to-be class teacher" was there to present us the "good news". And there i was, waiting.....
Finally it was my turn, i sign a paper, and received the file Miss Ann handed to me. I stare at the results for a long time to actually adjust it in my brain. I burst out with tears. "I pass all"!!!
I was over joy-ed, tears of joy!!!
No 8 A's but it's okay, more then okay. I'm happy for whatever i've received. Thank God for answering my prayers! I can't thank God enough!
I even got my year book(finally).
My parents were over joy-ed too... I'm so glad that i made them proud. I'm so glad i made myself proud!
WOOooo-hOoooo!!!!

But as usual, everything comes to an end. Good things never last. The new panic is "college issues". I'm having a major college issue right now! I can't seem to decide. Everytime i decide something, the next day would be a different decision! That really suck!

Anyway, wish me luck ppl!

The past few weeks

The past few weeks was like a wave washed on shore... It past really fast surprisingly. I thought it'll be one long, tortured week. But just a few more papers and a couple of days, it'll be all over. Highschool. Uniforms. RM1 fishball. Canteen's famous fried chicken. Highschool was a great experience. I definitely wish i could stay but life must move on.

Right now, everyone including my best buds are all talking bout the 4th of November(which is the last day of spm). All the anticipation of finally being free, kills me inside. Not in a bad way but in a party-party way. Being grown up in my family, life can be a lil' strict sometimes. So the thought of being free for at least 1 day is really exciting! Anyway, i definitely can't wait to put on my shopping shoes and start shopping since it's Year-End Sale. But the usual, no $$$. I sort of thinking bout getting a part-time job during my break. The problem is, don't know where and don't know how. There's lots to think about when getting a job. I also need to get my parents approval. Well, this holiday will be one hack of a break for me. After this, it will all come down to the topic my parents have been talking about, college. As exciting as it sounds, it scares me sometimes to just think about it. Me being quite a timid person(my friends won't agree on that) is not really ready for all that college drama life. I guess i'll just have to wait and see.

Until next time, it'll be just me and my fabulous holiday and whatever the future have in store for me, i'll be sure that i'm ready.

Ciou for now~