What's the use of being good at something but end up being an outcast in other people's eyes???
I feel really frustrated! I know it's not their fault but i just don't understand why can't they do faster? This is not the first time it happen. From the very beginning, it was like that. They are someone i really rely and care about but when comes to work, i can't connect with them. I'm sorry if i messed up but i can't take it anymore. I want to change but it's so hard to start. What is they hate me? What if they don't want to be friends with me anymore? So many questions pop into my mind when i think about it. And if not them, then who??? It's not that i can just go to the convenient store and buy a partner. I feel so... URGH!!! Words cannot describe it at all!!!
I love them a lot as friends but sometimes it gets into my nerves when they don't get things done on time. Today's incident brings back all the memories of it. At first, i thought, "Ok la... nevermind... give them a chance..." but now i feel i cannot say "nevermind" anymore. I have to speak up. So, right now. It's either i stand up to them and tell them straight into their faces or I just find someone else. Now to think about it, either way, i have to confront them somehow...
This feeling is so unnecessary. I feel so useless as a friend. And even more as a leader in a group.
Why??????????
This really have taught me a very valuable lesson, "Never get too close with anyone. A friend is a friend. A group project partner is just that."
I feel really frustrated! I know it's not their fault but i just don't understand why can't they do faster? This is not the first time it happen. From the very beginning, it was like that. They are someone i really rely and care about but when comes to work, i can't connect with them. I'm sorry if i messed up but i can't take it anymore. I want to change but it's so hard to start. What is they hate me? What if they don't want to be friends with me anymore? So many questions pop into my mind when i think about it. And if not them, then who??? It's not that i can just go to the convenient store and buy a partner. I feel so... URGH!!! Words cannot describe it at all!!!
I love them a lot as friends but sometimes it gets into my nerves when they don't get things done on time. Today's incident brings back all the memories of it. At first, i thought, "Ok la... nevermind... give them a chance..." but now i feel i cannot say "nevermind" anymore. I have to speak up. So, right now. It's either i stand up to them and tell them straight into their faces or I just find someone else. Now to think about it, either way, i have to confront them somehow...
This feeling is so unnecessary. I feel so useless as a friend. And even more as a leader in a group.
Why??????????
This really have taught me a very valuable lesson, "Never get too close with anyone. A friend is a friend. A group project partner is just that."
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