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My eyes suddenly experienced a great gravity pull... And the feeling that i had 4 months ago came back. But compared to 4 months ago, the first thing i did (besides thanking God), i thought of him... My late grandfather. The words starts ringing in my ear all over again. And it feels like it was just yesterday i hear him say those words to me. And just that, tears rolled down my cheeks...

How i miss him so much... He was someone deeply treasured in my heart even though life was not as happy when he was alive. I hope he knows that we all love him very much...

We Love You Ghong Ghong!

Okok... I'm talking about my exam results. I pass all... I'm very happy about it. Although i see lots of "-"(minus sign), it's still something that satisfied me. Thank you!

Looks like my mom have to cook me a meal. We made a deal during my torturous study week cuz at that time, i felt really tired and ready to give up. So, to put my spirits back up, i made a deal with her - If i pass my final exam, she has to cook me and my family dinner and i mean a real dinner with dishes and stuff. My mom seldom and i mean... SELDOM cook, so, for her to agree to do it, is something that i think, worth studying for... *smiles*

I love you mom and... dad... and sis... and my family and grandpa who has a great view up there watching over us... :)

Ciouz peeps! \m/

A Sluggish Day

Woke up at my usual weekend timing - 11am. Yes, i know. I missed out half a day and i should be enjoying the morning sun, blah, blah, blah. But it's the weekends - the time for sleep ins' and such. I woke up with a heavy head, groggy and drowsy head - Migraine! Urg! How i hate that feeling in the morning. I dragged myself out of bed and into the bathroom. My parents were already wide awake and done with breakfast. The smell of heavy curry washed 30% of my brain awake - and i knew what was for breakfast - ROTI! It's a special meal made out of dough. It looks like a pancake but way nicer than your normal pancake - it's an authentic Malaysian breakfast, and supper too. :)

After breakfast, i was lazing around on the sofa with the TV controller in my hands. I switched channels many times looking for a nice, decent show but everytime i turn to a channel, there's nothing but boring looking program. I kept turning to the same channel over and over again like a marry-go-round. And guess what happen next after 30 minutes of switching channels? I fell asleep! XD

Yes, indeed. With a stomach full of good roti, i fell asleep. And i slept for about 2 hours or so! LOL! I can't believe it myself. Was i that sleepy or was it because of my groggy migraine? Both maybe. But whatever it was that made me fell asleep, i was glad cuz when i woke up, the pain pumping in my brain was gone! POOF! But i woke up finding my dad and my mom asleep too. Like as if the fairies from Sleepy Beauty dropped a spell over us and BAM! - we all fall asleep.

Right now they are still asleep while i'm soaking in all the afternoon blues myself.

I'm thinking to myself, if only life was easy going as today. No rush. No plans. No schedules. Just plain old good nap and relaxation.

Hit me back to reality please...........~~~

Dreaming In Reality

It's officially the 5th day of my 2 week so-called holiday (now that it's 12am already). These past few days was nothing but what i've dreamt of the past weeks of torture! Sleep. TV. Couch-potato-ing. Online-ing. And just plain lazing around. Oh! How i miss that feeling. For 4 months of pure work and tiredness, i can finally lay my head on my pillow every night knowing that tomorrow is another day of nothing but relaxing in my dear home. Every morning i wake up, it's like a breath of fresh air. Cuz i know it's a brand new day to look forward to. But one thing turns me off every morning. The noise! AHH!!! There's a construction/renovation work going on just one floor down my unit. The sound of drilling and hammer knocking is sooooo........ exasperating! But luckily it's not a whole day of "Noise of Torture".

But something is missing while i'm sitting here at 12.24am. The excitement. Although i'm glad that i'm finally work-load free, i feel like there's no focus anymore. Usually when there's work, i focus on work. Now, all i can focus on is laziness! LOL!

It's 12.26 now, and i'm still wide awake. I want to soak all the work-free feeling as i can, while i can, i mean. I know my break is going to end soon as my internship is going to start. I'm freaking nervous but at the same time, excited. Overall, i know i'm going to have the "focus" back on soon and i think i should enjoy all this free time i have before it's time to go caa-kooo all over again.


Rock on \m/ peeps!~

MTV World Stage in Malaysia!

Arrived at Pyramid in the afternoon. Police and guards standing around. Random people hanging around the entrance of Sunway Pyramid and Sunway Lagoon theme park. All waiting for the moment of truth. No, I'm not talking about Swine flu. It's MTV World Stage, baby!

3 reasons why i went. First, i haven't been to a concert before, so i wanted to try. Second, it's right after my final (double the reason for me to go and party). Third, my favourite band is playing!!! (The more i want to go).

The show was kick off by our local bang, Estranged, which i have to say, they really know how to kick things off. They played 3 songs. I only know 2 of the songs they played. At the last song they played, they made the crowd bend down (predictably to make us jump). I don't blame them for doing that cuz i understand it's to make the crowd active. But the moment he said, "Jump!", everyone, front, back, side, middle, all banged on each other. I was squash and pushed around by all the people around me. Not a good highlight. It was already a very uncomfortable standing position - very cramped and it was raining. And the jumping didn't help much. It just made it more uncomfortable and cramper.

Next stop is the one i was waiting for - the one that made me go to this event, BOYS LIKE GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!! I was honestly excited and i went bizzard! I was waiting and praying and hoping to see them live and i finally got that wish. Although i was far away from the sate and can hardly see them, i still manage to get a glimpse of Martin and Paul (H-O-T!). The first song they sang was their new single off their new album, Love Drunk. The whole crowd sang along. Next, they sang my personal favourite, Thunder and Hero/Heroin. I sang my heart out. The feeling was awesome. While they were singing Thunder, it started drizzling again but stopped eventually. The last song was the song that made me fall in love with them, The Great Escape! Woo-Hoo!!!
Getting all hyped up and excited, unfortunately, i didn't get to enjoy the performance because half the time i was being pushed around once again like a ping pong ball and all squash in between sweaty people (eeewww.. i know!) But i was happy to just hear their voice live. Heard they are having a concert in Malaysia this coming October (VIP tickets, here i come!).



After being squeeze like a can of sardine, Jon, Ray, and I decided to go behind, away from the sardine crowd and grab a drink. Anyway, it was a break for the audience. So, we spent the rest of the concert behind and far away from the stage but at least still viewable and less cramped. We grabbed a drink for ourselves and guess what? It's RM5 for each drink! I had 2, so that means i spent RM10 on drinks itself. That's close to a cup of Starbuck's Flappacino! So, remind me next time when my career ever fails, i just need to open one satay stall at any concert and sell them for RM5 per stick!!! Muahahahaha! My evillll plan! XD

The next performance was Raygun and then Pixie Lott. Honestly, i have not heard of them until this event. Sad. But at least i heard of their songs on MTV before. I did dance to their music but i didn't know the song. Their performance was not bad but if they had more FM plays, they would probably have more impact on the audience.

After being entertain by the DJ with awesome songs, it was time for......... drum-roll please........

HOOBASTANK!!!

Their performance outshine the rest who performed (Yes, i have to admit, even BLG's). They sang their new singles from their albums and their most, and i mean most popular song that made them famous, The Reason. They whole crowd and i mean THE WHOLE CROWD, sang along to the song. It was an awesome feeling. I think the crowd made Malaysia proud for a change. I love their performance so much. And before they sang that song and turn the crowd upside down, they teased the crowd with a famous theme song, the Ghostbusters theme song. They said it's one of their new songs on their albums. LOL! The whole crowd scream and shouted, "Ghostbusters" when they sang, "Who're you gonna call?". A memorable performance to me.

Besides Hoobastank who made us all crazy and wild, the most anticipated performance by a band that is from the same state with my fav band, Boston, THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS!



Their performance was off-the-hook! Totally love them now! If you ask me which performance do i prefer, Hoobastank or The All American Rejects, i'll faint for you cuz that is one difficult question. Their performance was awesome as well. They performed songs from their latest album and also It Ends Tonight which is my favourite song by them ever! Tyson, the lead singer was sweating like nobody's business (all of the performers did) sang his lungs out. Me too sang and shouted my lungs out. AHH! Talking about it brings back so much energy. My energy was so high like as if i just ate or drank some energy-booster pill or something, considering i didn't eat my dinner!

Kasabian was the next to perform. An guess what? After AAR performed, many people started making their way out. Sad for Kasabian. The host aka MTV VJs tried to make them stay but there were an army of them just leaving the surf beach. I only stayed until the second song by Kasabian (again, haven't heard about them before but i know they are really popular in the U.K.) I have to say, although many had left, there were still a majority of them who stayed and supported them.That's the Malaysian spirit!

All and all, it was a amazing concert and i didn't regret going although the pushing and body hugging distance with the people around me was a total turn off, i will definitely attend another concert but maybe VIP style. XD

This is my first time to a concert so i'm not sure how to grade this event but i'll most probably give an "A" or a 8.5 out of 10.


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The feel of the feeling...

The sun is shining everyday - bright and sunny. The sky is blue but hazy. The sickness that is globally threatening all countries is getting worse as we speak. Everyday a person is sick and dying because of it. But what can we do? We are all part of the victim. A victim of this global threat. A victim of sickness. A victim of bad experiences.

Do you believe in bad luck? Karma? I do. Ever since the major lost that we are still moaning over, i've experienced things that i do not wish to experience anymore. Maybe i'm just being sensitive but honestly, this time of my life, i feel it's like a message. Maybe this experiences is to teach me something and that's also how i look at it. I have 1 month of sleepless nights due to assignments and projects. Just when i thought it's done and over, something bad happens to it. Let me count how many times it happen:

1. Animation assignment

2. Director project

3. Music video assignment

4. Short movie project

5. ..........

Approximately 5 times... That's enough to kill. I know, it's rather confusing. But until you experience a bad experience, you'll never understand.