What birthday???

My 18th birthday is almost here.. How time flies isn't it? But nothing seem to change.. I still feel the same and look the same! Guess what? I tested my parents to see whether they remember or not by asking them what is their plans this coming sunday and my mom was like, "Go out for what? We no need to work ar the next day?". I was literally hurt! For once in their life, can they think maybe it's not about them but about me???? It's my birthday for God sake!!! Not that i want to make a big deal out of it like as if my birthday is sooo special.. It's nothing like that. It's just that, last year, my parents actually forgotten my birthday! I came back carrying leftover cake from a surprise from my friends, and they asked, "What's the occasion?" And the next day, they only remembered it was my bday the day before! They apologize and even bought my favourite cake. But wounds won't heal so easily.
So this year, i actually make a point to drop hints and even asked them about their plan! But nothing! NOthing!!!
I was so disappointed! My own parents for heaven's sake!
I was so hyped up cuz my friends were actually planning something for me. Although i dunno what it is, i was happy that at least someone remembered!
But, let's just say i was let down again.....
My friend told me some were not free on that day and couldn't make it.. blah, blah, blah....
Trying to understand their situation and stuff, i was thinking, "How bout my situation?" Does anyone actualy care????

Ok, i don't want everything to sound like everything is about me. I'm just upset that the closest people i have let me down.....
Like i always said, "oh wellz...."

Half way there...

My final is over! Now i'm just waiting for my results... What will i get? Will i pass with flying colours? Who knows? Only the lecturer and god. This really reminds me of my SPM days, while waiting in misery.. but at least this time, i do not need to wait for 3 months for the results, i only need to wait for a few days, maybe about a week. Which makes it even more nerve-racking!

I have exactly 16 days, make that 14 already since it's already Sunday, to really relax and be a couch potato after months of studying and drowning in assignments!

The thing is, it doesn't feel the same as it was when i was waiting for my SPM results. Last time i was really lazy and i sort of enjoyed the boredom. Now, i feel like as if it's torture! staying home and watching TV all day!

I can't imagine doing that for 14 days of my break. So guess what? I've decided to do stuff during that time. hanging out with friends, visiting my sis at her office, and probably going shopping on my own if there isn't anyone who wants to go with me.

Hey, probably studying mass comm have finally put an effect on me! L.O.L! Being more confident! Not totally yet, but i'll be.... Soon~

12th week!

How time flies isn't it??? 2 more weeks till final exam.. and 2nd sem. I wish it could slow down but then again, that's life rite?
This week has the most hectic so far ever since i started college! Monday was com116 test, tuesday was the due date for iT assg, wednesday i had 2 test, thursday was normal but tiring as usual, friday..... well.. as usual, stayed at home and drowning myself with assgs.

The newsletter from edboard has finally came out! I got one copy! And i'm so happy.. though i didn't participate much in the second issue, i still feel proud~!
I lost my thumbdrive. I think i left it at the photostat shop when i went to print out my print ad assg. Sob sob... I'm so forgetful! Now i dunno whether its still there or not but i've asked erica to help me out. Hopefully it could be found! Or else i'll cry...

I'm here!!!

I seem so free for updating my blog... hahaha. I'm not! I actually have tons of assignments to do and studying. But i'm taking a break from it after almost the whole day doing my assignments. I hardly got anything done!!!(AHHhhh!!!)

How's my week doing? Well, monday was as per usual. When over to college early in the morning cause i had a group discussion. Tuesday was same old same old. Boring day! I had english test that day. God knows how i did... (Hmmm???)

Wednesday was cool. Got more assignments on that day. O.O

Thursday was a nerve-recking one. Cause i had a presentation! I couldn't sleep the whole night before! But guess what???? The lecturer postpone it to next week! I was so frustrated. Relieve at the same time of course but i was hoping to get it over with! After malaysian studies class, erica and i when to have breakfast with brian n the guys. Burger King! Sooo expensive! I didn't eat of course because i always have my breakfast before going for morning classes.

Brian scared both me and erica that diploma in mass comm was not approved by LAN! At first i was like, "Whatever, it's not that i'm gonna work in a government office". But when someone said that some companies might not hire us because it's not recognise by LAN, i totally freak!

Already mass comm is such a competitive industry and so many people are studying the same thing, by the time i graduate, god knows whether there are any jobs available! But fortunately, when i went and asked mr.phang, our HOP, he help clear my misery. It's approve!

Ahhhhhh.... sigh of relieve....

On friday i had edboard meeting but i skiped it cause i wanted to stay home and study and do my assgs. My life i practically all assgs!

Anyway, now i have 4 brand new assignments to do. All due on the same week! How "nice"!

I have malaysian studies test next wednesday. I'm extremely nervous!

Wish me luck!~

7th Week!~

It's my 7th week in college! WOW! How time flies isn't it??? I still remember the times when i can't decide what course i should take. Those were the days...

Anyway, i've met new friends and its great. Though sometimes i feel like i don't fit in, i'm happy with my circle of friends now. It's them that gets my butt moving. Or else i might have already given up! My assignments??? Well, same old, same old. Still tons of them flowing in. Luckily for my skill at time management, i completed most of it. (don't talk so soon.. hahaha)

Guys??? L.O.L! Saw a few in my college. But you know me, i'm damn shy when it comes to guys! Hahaha!

What else??? Hmmm.... Well, i still keep in touch with my old buddies. Mun call me once a while when she gets the time. The rest, we chat online when we bump into each other. Boy, i miss them! Right now, i wish i could hang with them... shopping and stuff... I'm sure they've changed a lot. I know i did. Maybe not to the extend but i know i've changed a bit. I see that in myself.

So, i think that's all i can say bout my life now... Tiring, fun, stressful, crazy..etc...

~Cheers!

-xoxo-

3rd Week!!!

I've started college and i must say, it's the opposite of "so far, so good". Okay, probably not that bad. It is quite nice being in collge, meeting new friends, having a new environment, and who can forget, the ASSIGNMENTS!!! A few assignments have been given and i'm currently struggling with one of them. 15 pages of anything about iT. I chose "the web". Little do i know, it was kinda a bad choice. But it's too late to turn back now. I have to do it eventhough it's tough.
Anyway, i'm having fun or at least i'm trying to have fun. Thats all i can write now. Gotto go and hack myself again...(whatever that means... honestly, i've learn a lot of new words in cllg).

~xoxo~

No pain, no game!

I almost got what i wanted for a long time. And i'm almost there of getting it. I should be happy, right? But i don't know whether i am... cuz i need to wait for about 3 years for it to be perfect! Honestly, i dunno whether i can wait for it. I have to though and i will! And thank God for listening to my prayers...
Wondering what i'm talking about??? Sorry.. can't tell...
Anyway, my college will be starting next, next week and my orientation is next week! AHHHhhh!!! *PANIC*
I'm ready, i guess. I will try to be the girl i always wanted to be. The girl that i didn't get a chance to show in highschool. For college, i want to be whoever i want to be! Confident enough?? Well, i hope i can keep it up!!!
Wish me luck!!!
~xoxo~

Idol Gives Back

I never watched a reality show and actually cried. Yesterday was american idol special, Idol Gives Back! If you haven't heard about it, "Where the hell have you been??". It's where celebrities the the americans donate money and time to help the poor and the sick. Both in America and Africa. When i watched it yesterday, i cried. It was both touching and inspirational. Last year they collected about 73 million dollars and this year they are aiming for 100 million. Talk about high expectations. But just imagine, a buck can save lives... who knew that can happen? I didn't. There are so many people in africa suffering from Aids and they are HIV positive. Not only adults but small children, infants, toddlers! It's scary to just think about it but it's more scary for them. It made me wonder "why do they need to suffer?", "what did they do to deserve this?". They don't! They haven't even experience life yet and some of them haven't even got new shoes before! How fortunate are we to have even a pair of not torn shoes? Have we thought how lucky we are to have 3 meals a day??? There's a phrase saying, "stop and smell the flowers". It doesn't actually mean stop and smell the flower. It means to stop for a moment or two to think about how lucky each of us are and thank God for it.

These people in Africa might not have Jimmy Choo shoes or even 3 meals a day but you'll be surprise how thankful they are to even have a piece of dry bread!

And in America, poverty is one of the main issues. Last year, New Orleans experience a terrible hurricane called the Hurricane Katrina. I might not know much about it but i do know that the whole town was destroyed by the "strong wind"! Not only homes were swept away but lifes too. Those who survived, many of them preferred to be dead because they've lost so many dear families and friends... Some not only lost their family and homes, they lost the will to live. I feel sorry for them and many people i'm sure would like to play God for a day and bring back the lives that were lost. Unfortunately, only God can decide our lives. This teaches me a huge lesson, bigger than what i learn from text books, that we must cherish our life and the ones among us and live them to the fullest!

It was nice to see that american idol thought of something so meaningful and brilliant at the same time. This gives a new perspective about them, not only it's a singing competition and searching for the next big star and to be criticize or praise by simon himself but also to help the less fortunate! Big around of applause to American Idol!!!

And lastly.... please, please, please do donate some money(www.americanidol.com). And please do care for the people that are less fortunate. It takes just a little to change a person's life!

College.... here i come!

Saturday, 29th March 2008:

The day i think i should remember. Because that's the day i sign up for college!!! After months, and months of thinking, i finally decided. It wasn't the "Oh! I know what college i should go to", kind of thing. It was more of the last minute, "no choice" kinda thing. I when to the college for it's open day which i did before. Lava was there too because i invited her. I thought i could get a tour around the campus but unfortunately, touring was not allowed that day. If i would want a tour, i would have to go there again on April 19.

Anyway, i'm feeling all the emotions at the moment. From nervous to excited. From happy to sad. From anxious to calm(because i don't need to think as much anymore). From everything to the opposite. It sound insane but if you're in my shoes, you'll know how i feel.

So my college's gonna start in may. I still got about 1 month to dee-lee, deh-lee. But gonna start preparing....

*wIsh me Luck!!!****

Reward!!

I just got a new phone as a reward from my parents. It's either a phone or an ipod. And my mom said a phone is more worth it. So, now my brand new baby which i love so much is a new Nokia 5610 XpressMusic phone!!! Love, love it! I can finally download songs into it and and listen all night long... It has a 4gb memory card in it. So i can download lots of stuff. The set back??? It'll always "hang". Cause it's to heavy for such a small gadget to hold on i guess. Anyway, my dad have to bring it back to the phone shop to replace it with a lower gb. Maybe 2gb.

My college is going to start in may. Which college??? (Shhh...) Can't tell. But i'm kinda worried bout the whole transportation thing. God knows how am i gonna go to class. I guess i have to think of something fast! My parents are pastering me to learn how to drive. But i don't have the confidents in driving. Not at all!

Panic finally over... wait..... new panic coming soon...

What do you know? I finally got my SPM results yesterday. My dad actually took leave to send me to school(which i miss so much!). The news said that we could collect our results at 10am but turns out the results were stuck in traffic(literally!). So imagine hundreds of anxious students waiting for their "future". One of them is "me"! I arrived at 10 something and waited for about 2 hours. Finally when we were told that it was TIME, my heart felt as if it was gonna jump off my chest!!! To make matters worse, my best friend was stopped by a teacher because apparently she wore to "sexy"...(???) and i was the first to arrived at the classroom!!!(different class, different classrooms)
Stupid thing is, i didn't have the guts to go in. So i let my other "ex-classmates" to go in first. After a breath or 2, i finally step into the classroom. My "use-to-be class teacher" was there to present us the "good news". And there i was, waiting.....
Finally it was my turn, i sign a paper, and received the file Miss Ann handed to me. I stare at the results for a long time to actually adjust it in my brain. I burst out with tears. "I pass all"!!!
I was over joy-ed, tears of joy!!!
No 8 A's but it's okay, more then okay. I'm happy for whatever i've received. Thank God for answering my prayers! I can't thank God enough!
I even got my year book(finally).
My parents were over joy-ed too... I'm so glad that i made them proud. I'm so glad i made myself proud!
WOOooo-hOoooo!!!!

But as usual, everything comes to an end. Good things never last. The new panic is "college issues". I'm having a major college issue right now! I can't seem to decide. Everytime i decide something, the next day would be a different decision! That really suck!

Anyway, wish me luck ppl!

F.E.B.R.U.A.R.Y

Half way through the fabulous leap month! So far, so good. Chinese new year is almost ending(15 days). Really sad. One minute, i'm baking cookies for CNY and decorating the house, the next i'm clearing out all the left over cookies. I can't even imagine it's over! Time past so fast. I guess they're right when they say, "Time wait for no man".

Valentine's day! Nothing special. Just another ordinary day for me. Every year, i spend my valentine's day alone. This year, my parents didn't even enjoy theirs. Turn's out, they argued throughout the day or night. I was there, trying not to eavesdrop their conversation but it was difficult cause my mom was yelling so loudly! After a couple of days later, everything was back to normal(I hope)...

Last Saturday, i went out with my group of friends. We wanted to play bowling but the bowling alley was occupied for a bowling tournament. Though the day was short and half way through the day we were tired, we all definitely had fun.

2008 continues..... my life goes on...

Take two!

I baked muffins again!!! I know i said i'm not going too but i can't helped it. This time it didn't involve any chocolate. Its just normal, plain cupcakes. I think i did better this time. Only thing is that it's not sweet enough n a lil' hard. My dad said it tasted like bread. But hey, he loves bread anyway. At least i have someone that thinks it is okay cause to me, i think i suck! I hope i do better next time...

So, what's new in my usual, boring life??? Nothing much actually. The only thing interesting i could think of is that Chinese New Year is coming. Really excited with everything. With the whole open house thing and the "angpow" thing. Almost everything is awesome!

And i finally know what i want to major in! I'll be studing mass communications. First, i wanted to major in journalism(something that involve in writing) but now i want to major in event planning!!! I find that is something i love doing. I've always enjoy planning things - from open house like every chinese new year to normal gatherings. It's really exciting! And fun! Something i think i will enjoy!

The whole week

What's new? Well, my room is freshly painted in pink, i got a chance to catch-up with a couple of friends and i got a new phone??

My dad brought back a brand-new Sony Ericsson K510i from work and gave it to me. I'm not a big fan of Sony Ericsson phone but i accepted it anyway. The first few days i struggle with it because i wasn't use to it yet but now i am.

And yes, my room pink in colour now. It's one of my many favourite colour, so i'm not complaining. It's not fully pink though. It's only 1 wall pink and the rest is white. My parents room also have a fresh coat of paint in yellow! Both bathrooms were also painted. One of them is in yellow and the other is in pink!

Yesterday i got to go out with my friends to One Utama to celebrate Lavinia's birthday. There was only 3 of us(me, lava, mun). I went to Lava's house very early in the morning so that her dad could fetch us both to 1U. We met up with Mun there. We spend the rest of the day watching movie(National Treasure~ it was a great movie. Very exciting and lil' funny if you get their jokes. I think it's better then the first one.), shopping and walking. It was great to see them both and catch-up with our latest news.

Today i'm back at home again. Tomorrow is a public holiday. So i'm looking forward to it.